Keep in mind that all names have been changed … 
4/1/06
Dream last night – something to do with PLA and talking about how it looks
Know that I have the power. See a button feel my way through it – what’s the mirror – process. Simple – not necessarily easy.
Back to the dream – not remembering the details – I’m waking up the last two mornings and going right into the day plus there’s an ego issue of how I can remember my dreams better than pw – I’m so good.
4/2/2006
Last night I had asked the question of whether I was on the right track or was I just spending money and kidding myself – doing things from a selfish place – and I had the following dream
I’m fixing an engine in a car that was loose and rattling and would fall apart if it kept going that way – as I pull it out (good thing it was a dream because I just picked it up with my hands and it looked more like something to do with electronics than mechanics) I find that the main thing wrong is the nuts and bolts are very loose and it takes me time as I examine it and tighten them all up – - – - and seeing the parallel of how I am really putting my life in order that it will be able to run smoothly and efficiently when I step on the gas.
Then there is something about a bunch of presents and friends in a car from TX and having to preserve these gifts in water –
4/5/06
Dreams last night were – about having a dog and a baby with me and flying through the universe and the only way to see what was happening was to get back to the source – the beginning of creation – so in the dream we’re speeding back through time until we see the creation
Interesting to note that I didn’t write it down right away and was able to go back to sleep and still remember as well as dream again
In this other dream there was something about a fireplace and p working on getting it going and it getting messed up and he burned his arm – like the burning wood fell on it – and I’m telling him to put ice water on it because I had to get the baby???
4/6/06
last night I asked myself and God what is it that is still in the way – what’s the things that are keeping me from “feeling” how perfect life is – the perfect joy – the perfect freedom – what are the key fears that I need to look at. It’s like nothing is really “wrong” in fact things are looking quite good. And maybe it’s that I’m not making all the money yet and I don’t feel like the speaking stuff can be that “easy” as well as I do get frustrated when I try to make it easy and the members don’t get it (more on that later)
So I had a dream that I’m going out for the evening with pw and I’m going to go get my hair done – I am first going to go to a store to get something for my hair – while I’m looking there’s a little girl that’s running around by herself and I know her – I can’t force her to go home of “control her” so I am going with her – kind of following along as she goes here and there looking at different things – we go into a store like Walmart and she’s kind of running between all of the adults and bumps into one – everyone is looking at her wondering where her parent’s are and who’s supposed to be watching out for her – she bumps into rg and he and I are talking about her and that I can’t impose what I think she should do – can’t force her to go home kind of thing – so I’m just trying to watch out for her – and she calls me to look at some clothes – so I say bye to him and go over to see what she is looking at and it’s lingerie and there are a lot of really beautiful pieces but I’m telling her that these can’t be worn out side to dinner and dancing and explaining that it’s because you can see through them and we’re talking about how beautiful they are –
About that time I wake up – I’m not sure what the dream was saying but as I write it out there’s a sense that the message that I thought was so obscure is right there in front of my face…
4/12/2006
Last nights dream. Call to have a person come to work at my house and tell them that the way to get there is to come to the web site for the exclusive forms, and when he gets there he looks like Steve Martin, then I cut off his head in a kind of wheel cog – with a blade kind of thing – and we have the meat for dinner – then it’s a party and I have a glass giraffe that is on a table and he belongs to dan – his leg gets broken off (giraffe) and I eat it – and the next thing is that the giraffe is standing up again and it has a cast / bandage on the leg – then it’s back to the day and the Steve Martin look alike is back working and I call his office to let him know – and have to tell them he’s at the same address and they are kind of like – oh it’s you again huh? – and then we go through the same routine of cutting off his head. But this time I know that he’s going to come back to life ……………… ok so this one has me a bit stumped – unless it is that what I do that I THINK will hurt or damage something / someone if it does affect the thing can be mended and with respect to the person – it’s only an illusion.
4/13/2006
I had a dream last night and I didn’t remember it – I didn’t write it down right away and then I was awake for at least 2 hours last night. … dream something about AIDS and being covered with sores…
I really think that when I use my dreams I help myself – heal myself if you will – and when I don’t I choose to let things fester and I am the worse for it.
4/18/2006
Dream last night – playing with fish – playing with dolphins – playing with a whale – I was the only ne that knew that it was a whale – everyone else thought that it was a building and path.
But I left the park and had to get tickets to get back in – didn’t have enough cash the first time – got a few tickets and needed to get more – ran it through some validation machine and the first tickets came out with mirrors so they couldn’t be used anymore. It’s like I would keep them but they wouldn’t apply.
I know that it’s about looking at mirrors there is something about out of sight out of mind – forgetting my dad
4/22/2006
Dream about singing with Louis Armstrong climbing up a REALLY tall ladder/tower and sitting on some chair in heaven doing Hello Dolly then I’m talking with an actress/singer that I know and yet this is before she has reached the pinacle of her career. She is worried about being able to make it – she’s very young – I just look at her and smile and tell her that I know she will succeed – just keep moving and it will come together – I know – I’ve seen it.
another dream – working with 4 boys on a stage – they are a quartet – and there is a circus of junk going on – people interrupting, making noise – little kids playing on a piano – just a cacophony and we can’t get to the rehearsal with so many distractions and so much noise so finally I tell everyone to clear out – we have work to do and if they can’t or won’t I will remove them by force if necessary, – interesting note that I have 4 boys all of them have challenges that are more notable. Then I’m standing on a sidewalk looking at down the street watching a young kid – I think it’s a boy – riding their bike really fast and they loose control of the bike and fall of – I’m thinking that they are really hurt and so I start to go over to them and then I see that they have lost both their arms and legs in the fall and I screamed and woke myself up. In this section I know that there is something about being helpless to “do” now that they have no arms and legs – there’s also more about “who they are” … time will tell
From the meditation between the two dreams – I will never know the joy of the music that I seek until I am one with it, that I know I will achieve the things I seek – just be at peace with the process/journey – that I need to see the whole man not the fairy tale version in order to … move forward / see more clearly … that I choose to let all the awareness, consciousness, knowledge from my total journey come to the forefront to be used, sourced and made manifest in my life, that the ability to see is also a choice